Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Okay~ So I haven't really posted in a week (other than that short declaration of triumph below)... I'm not exactly very busy, yet not exactly free. It's just that I don't feel like doing anything at all after school-- must the the side effect of sitting through lectures (--)''' Or maybe I'm thinking about my current situation too much. What do I mean by that? My subject combination and whether or not I should try to stay where I am not regardless of my O level results.
Firstly, my subject combination: Mathematics, Biology, Geography and English Literature; a half-half, though technically I'm in the Arts stream. I like the subjects I'm studying now, but there's one BIG problem-- the facts I need to memorise are simply too much for my poor brain. Which means I should drop either Bio, Geog or Lit since they are the main culprits. But which one? I like all of them, and at the same time, have no confidence that I'll score in all of them (including Maths, which regrettably isn't exactly my favourite subject either). And even if I make up my mind as to which one I should give up, what do I replace it with? Economics? H2 Chinese? Computer Studies?<-- won't that mean I need to be in the Science stream?? HUH?
But wait, should I even stay put for JAE? I mean, even if my results are better than expected, do I want to stay? If my results are worst than my PRELIM ones, then obviously I'd try to get a place here, since I had so much fun, felt so happy and got to know quite a few people. The um, atmosphere(?) here is great; I can just sit to next to a 'stranger' , start chatting without much effort, and leave for my next lesson knowing that I've just spent an hour with a 'friend'. This actually happened a few times already, starting yesterday (when we first went for lessons according to our specific subjects) since I'm the only person in my OG in the Arts stream. If not for my random (literally), new-found friends, I'd be pretty lonely all the time.
So what's putting me off staying?
- No MEP
- The academic performance at A levels.
I don't even know where to start hating myself from~
So now, one part of me, my heart, is telling me to stay no matter what and look further than just figures and percentages.
The other part of me, my head, is telling me to grab the opportunity and leave for greener pastures elsewhere if I get the chance.
(T.T)
I suppose I still have time, and I probably should look at my results first before making any decisions. So, the drama continues... Next Week.
First band practice tomorrow. Looking forward to it much more than I sound.
And the Principal was really sweet today. I was waiting for my waffle from the stall when he went to return his empty tea/coffee cup and saucer. He asked how I was doing ("not bad...") and commented that the results would be out next week. I must have looked rather uneasy because he told me this,
"Don't worry, I am confident that Cedar girls will do well".
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