I'm scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared scared SCARED of the truth?! Argh~ It's almost like Judgement Day for me tomorrow...
But introducing Kimeru, whose songs played a big role calming me down this few days (the end's cut, but nevermind, since I can't seem to find any other):
Hopfully, I won't get the chance to break down tomorrow...
And the last phototaking in band uniform at 2 tomorrow... Wow... Time sure zoomed past...
I seem to be living in a never-ending nightmare... All the way from SYF, the tonnes of homework, the hours spent mugging, the exams themselves, and now, the results... Yikes... Gotten back 6 papers, failed 3 of them... D7, E8, F9... And the best among the 6 was a B4... Couldn't get more upset than this...
Thanks for consoling me...
I was in a ultra-lousy mood, and basically didn't feel like doing anything... But after I calmed down (result of a few hours of listening to songs), I asked myself: why? I can't say it's SYF, 'cos the other band members were doing alright... Not the overload of homework, not the crammed exam schedule, 'cos the rest of the class didn't do that badly either... So it's me... I need to 1) manage my time properly and 2)adopt a more serious attitude towards homework; 3) practice more of maths, and 4)start revision early...
With those in mind, I just have to move forward and start all over again... But that's easy to say and hard to do... And I'm very, very scared about the results of the rest of my papers... I cannot fail another one... I know it can't be changed, but still...
But I will work hard-- don't want a repeat of this ever again...
When I was walking along the corridor home on Friday night, this tiny lizard just dropped down from the wall and started running (out of fright, I suppose) for its dear life... The thing is, I ran too, and much, much faster (pretty much for the same reason)... (^^)''' Hey, I couldn't help it-- it's natural instinct... Haha...
So anyway, it was sports day... Oh yay... It's so fun to watch people running on the track... Round and round, full circles (or rather, ovals), half circle(oval), quarter circle(oval)... I took the chance to sit in the sun to tan myself... And considering the heat (and discomfort I felt plus the sweating more than a pig part) from that versus the uber light shade of tan I got, it wasn't worth it...
Anyway, slightly more than half the class went to Seoul Garden for lunch after that... Quite nice... And we spent 3 or so hours there... Haha... Must be a nightmare for the other people there...
Screenshot of my current desktop:
Cute wallpaper right?? =3
Argh... Mid-years starts on Friday and what am I doing now...
Oh yeah
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEI QIANG!!!
I watched this on Youtube and just couldn't resist sharing this video... Nearly died laughing... The cops and the everyone... And even the music stopped... Haha...
The actual complete routine:
And in case you don't know what the fuss is all about:
It's from the ED of The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya aka Suzumiya Haruhi no yuuutsu =3 And people are just dancing to it in the middle of the street--
Introducing Bao Hui's current craze, visual kei band Alice Nine, with Akatsuki:
And Gackt, who was introduced to me by Hui Min:
The ghostly Bohemian Rhapsody MV video:
And finally, a short, cute and sad animation about a kiwi and what it'd give to fufill it's dream:
I read Swee Jin's blog and yeah, Ms Sia actually smiled after our performance... A first... Sweet... And somehow I kinda agree to what she says... Go read that post... I shall just quote the last few lines:
I normally don't believe in all the "Friday the Thirteen" stuff but today was pretty s***ty... Sorry, but I can't think of any other word... Maybe 'cos of SYF yesterday and us bandies are affecting everyone else's moods and the class was pretty sombre today... But all everything that happened today didn't raise my spirits one bit... And I already was feeling exhausted when I woke up...
About SYF... We went there with high hopes, played, got our seniors' compliments, and left with a silver, hopes dashed... And many the band members crying... I don't know why, but I couldn't cry out... For someone who's overly sentimental and cries even when watching Titanic the third (or forth, I can't remember) time, I didn't shed a single tear... I really, really don't know why... Tears did swell up in my eyes on several occasions, from the moment the results were announced up till today morning, but they didn't fall... How ironic it was, that when I stepped out of SCH, I realised it was raining heavily... It was more or less clear earlier in the morning... It almost seemed that the tears I didn't cry went to the sky and fell as rain... I mean, I had really wanted to cry... Out loud, never ending, hard... But somehow, when I took a look at all those who were around me, their eyes red, swollen, or still sobbing, I just couldn't cry... And then Tanya asked me to tell her frankly whether she screwed up her solo... Oh gosh... How much pressure she was under... Tanya, I'll tell you again-- you didn't screw up, you played even better than in band pracs, so don't even try to start blaming yourself for anything...
Its not like I'm not sad or anything... I'm heartbroken, I'm disappointed, and it felt like all my/our energy and efforts were wasted... It felt like the 1+ years we spent preparing was in vain... I felt horrid... On the exact same day 2 years ago, we got a silver... It was just history repeating itself... And I played too, 2 years ago... Heard the exact results, too... Except that then, I was sec 2, the youngest in the section and now I'm the SL... But like then, the bus was extremely quiet on the way back... The only bout of laughter sounded foreign, and died down almost immediately...
I forgot to bring my change of school uniform (except white shoes, which I came in) , so after we were dismissed, I borrowed a skirt that was slightly too small from the PR, a jacket that was too large from Lydia (thanks), changed into them (wearing the jacket over my band blouse, duh) and went shopping with Hui Min and Shu Ying at Heartland Mall... Don't know why, but I felt better after that...
I may not be joining band in JC, cos of my allegy to something (I don't know what) on/in the eupho, so this may very well be the result of the last band SYF I participate in... We'll see...
But I'll still like to thank everyone who encouraged, played with or consoled me-- [thanks]
Swee Jin presented this song the other day... I've heard of the song before, but never really listened to it... But it's so interesting!! I mean, there's so many singing styles and erm, 'genres' in a single song... Haha...
Anyway, I realised that I haven't been updating as much... Can't really help it... It's band pracs, band and more band pracs... Let me just summarise: Mr Ito came and went, even if he wasn't impressed with us, he definitely left us impressed... And I, maybe the whole section, was under a lot of stress around that time... 'Cos both conductors suddenly noticed that they can't hear us and we just couldn't play loud enough (problem not solved yet, but we're making some progress)... Then came the 6 band pracs in a week... All on top of the usual homework, tests, and whatever... Anyway, it got so stressful for me that I started asking myself this: How much do I want the Gold?
And Happy Birthday Si Lei =]
My hands have been trembly ever since I took the medicine... Hmmm... Didn't expect the antibiotics and that white-and-grey pill to have so much effect... Yeah... See how much I trust my doctor? I don't even know what those medicine are specifically for...
Anyway, we 'moved houses' on Thursday... So it's byebye to one and hello to another... I moved to somewhere near the centre of the class... It just feels weird sitting there lah... I mean, I lingered around at the back for so long... Oh, oh, and the whole process was so funny!! When we figured out we're moving, everyone started talking about fengshui(after wailings, screechings, shriekings-- you name it from our dramatic class)... About how people sitting in a particular pattern or shape passed this test which everyone else in class failed... Then it changed to the routes of the teachers-- how that particular seat has bad fengshui 'cos this teacher like to look in that direction, or that teacher like to frequent the area and stand there for most part of the lesson, or that teacher who 'borrows' the homework from that few desks and use it as her answer key... Haha...
Anyway, there's 6 days of band next week... That's speech day, the rehearsal, another ajudication, on top of the normal 3 practices every week... Even my parents aren't that happy about it... But what to do? They're tiring, freezing, stressful, but get us nearer to the gold for SYF... I really don't want to be disappointed again... Haizz...
And speaking of band, I am now the proud SL of a section of 7! You know, it sounds so much nicer than: "There's a total number of 4 people in our section, inclusive of me"... Haha... But so far, I've only met 1 of the sec 1s... Hopefully I'll get to see all of them soon...
I suppose I better do some Macbeth research now... Ciao~
URGH~
I'm down with flu and throat inflammation... And the doctor told me go back again next week so that he can confirm whether I have a super-duper-ultra sensitive nose... Good grief... Every time I go to a doctor's, some new illness crop up...
And after PE yesterday, I'm having muscle ache around my tummy and rib cage... So I'm trying hard not to laugh or sneeze... And with a flu, the latter action is especially difficult to prevent... Haizz...
My teeth will start chattering when it gets too cold...
So imagine my embarrassment when my teeth started chattering loudly during band prac today... Had to cover my mouth until the air-cons were finally turned off... Gosh... Imagine the temperature then...
Nothing much else to say today...
除了《花样少年少女》超好笑！哈哈……
Oh yeah, maybe I'll consider the music career option that conductor talked about...
And I did a bunch of quizzes after chancing upon Swee Jin's blog... =D
Here goes:Your Luck Quotient: 62% 
You have a high luck quotient.
More often than not, you've felt very lucky in your life.
You may be randomly lucky, but it's probably more than that.
Optimistic and open minded, you take advantage of all the luck that comes your way.You Are 28% Shy 
You are slightly shy, but overall, your reactions to social situations are normal.
You dread difficult social situations, but you still handle them with grace.You're Totally Sarcastic 
You sarcastic? Never! You're as sweet as a baby bunny.
Seriously, though, you have a sharp tongue - and you aren't afraid to use it.
And if people are too wimpy to deal with your attitutde, then too bad. So sad.You Belong in Fall 
Intelligent, introspective, and quite expressive at times...
You appreciate the changes in color, climate, and mood that fall brings
Whether you're carving wacky pumpkins or taking long drives, autumn is a favorite time of year for youYou Are 62% Peaceful 
You are a very peaceful person. All is good in your world, no matter what's going on.
Occasionally you let your problems get to you, but you generally remain upbeat.
Your inner strength is inspirational - much more so than you may realize.If You Were Born in 2893... 
Your Name Would Be: Iara Ardv
And You Would Be: The Destroyer of EarthYou Are Fairly Skeptical 
You're not the type of person who will fall for anything...
But you do keep your mind open to all sorts of possibilities.
You figure that anything could be true. After all, the world is a strange place.
However, you're going to need some convincing before you can believe in aliens or reincarnation!You Passed 8th Grade Math 
Congratulations, you got 10/10 correct!Your World View
You are a cautious type, neutral, and rather insecure.
You would agree with the idea that everybody has his price...
And in your own case it would not be high.
You are ruled by an inferiority complex and not easy to assess.
How do you present yourself to the world?
An idealist, a moralist, a conformist keeping up with the Joneses?You Have Your Emotions in Check 
You are an incredibly stable and happy person.
Ever consider being a therapist?
You have figured out how to keep a positive outlook, no matter what.
You don't have an easier life than anyone else. You just have figured things out a little more.The Part of You That No One Sees 
You are balanced, peaceful, and sincere.
You're the type of person who goes along to get along.
And you're definitely afraid of rocking the boat.
Underneath it all, you fear your world falling apart.
You'll put up with a situation that you don't like in fear of changing it.
Disruptive and forceful people intimidate you - and sometimes exploit you.Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ENFP) 
Your personality type is enthusiastic, giving, cautious, and loyal.
Only about 8% of all people have your personality, including 9% of all women and 6% of all men
You are Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.What Your Hands Say About You 
You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills.
Bold and daring, you're not afraid to change your life if you think it needs an overhaul.
Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life.
Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.You Are Not Destined to Rule the World 
You are destined for something else...
Like inventing a new type of cupcake.
You just don't have the stomach for brutality.
But watch out - because many people do!You Follow Your Heart 
You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional.
You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly.
Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you.
You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature.
Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the windWhat Your Dreams Mean... 
Your dreams seem to show that you're a bit disturbed... but nothing serious.
You may have a problem you're trying to work out in your sleep.
Overall, you are very content in your life.
Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities.
You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.You Are 30% Borderline 
You're a little moody, but you probably don't have a borderline personality.
Everyone has their ups and downs. Just don't make too much of them.The True You 
You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be together with you always, no matter when or where.
With respect to money, you are a bit stingy.
You think good luck depends on maintaining good relationships with others.
The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort.
You have a tendency to overdo things, but basically you value your friendships highly.
When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you will search and search until you find your perfect match.You Are Quite Worldly 
You've done a good bit of worldly exploring, and you have an international perspective.
And you're definitely looking forward to your future adventures abroad.
You've got the passport, the desire to travel, and maybe even the language skills.
Now all you need are the means!In 1991 (the year you were born) 
George H.W. Bush is president of the US
The US and its allies launch an air attack on Iraq to being liberating Kuwait
In a ground war that lasts just 100 hours, the US easily defeats the Iraqi army in Kuwait
The case against Oliver North is "terminated" with all Iran-Contra charges dropped
The US Senate approves the nomination of Clarence Thomas, after investigating an allegation of sexual harassment
A brush fire destroys over 3000 homes in Oakland, California
Tim Berners-Lee introduces the web browser
An amateur video captures the beating of Rodney King by Los Angeles police officers
Serial killer Jeffrey Dahmer is arrested after the remains of 11 men and boys are found in his Milwaukee, Wisconsin apartment
The Union of Soviet Socialist Republics officially ceases to exist
Linus Torvalds releases the Linux kernel
Sonic the Hedgehog is released for the Sega Genesis in North America
Minnesota Twins win the World Series
New York Giants win Superbowl XXV
Pittsburgh Penguins win the Stanley Cup
Terminator 2: Judgment Day is the top grossing film
Nirvana's Nevermind, led by the surprise hit single "Smells Like Teen Spirit", is the most popular album of the year
"Everything I Do (I Do It For You)" by Bryan Adams spends the most time at the top of the US charts
Britney Spears appears on Star Search
Home Improvement premieresYou Are 4% Spoiled 
You are definitely not spoiled. You've worked hard for what you have.
Down to earth and grounded, you don't need a lot to make you happy.You Are a Funny Gift Giver 
Your gifts are wacky, offbeat, and even borderline naughty.
You prefer to give a gift that makes someone crack up...
Forget utility. You prefer to give something that's totally hilarious.You Should Have Been Born Under: 
Your most comfortable inside your head - and often daydream the day away.
You have an artistic temperament that makes you seem creative to some, eccentric to others.
You avoid conflict at all costs, and you have a difficult time with relationships.
Attractive and with good manners, you tend to shine in social situations.
You are most compatible with a Pig or Rabbit.You Are 57% Perfectionist 
No one would call you a perfectionist, but you definitely have a side of you that strives to be perfect.
Try to see your mistakes as learning experiences, and don't be so hard on yourself when you screw up!You Are "Kiss" 
Your Pride Quotient: 20% 
You the furthest thing from prideful - truly humble.
You don't consider anyone or anything beneath you.Your Dominant Intelligence is Musical Intelligence 
Every part of your life has a beat, and you're often tapping your fingers or toes.
You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you at the wrong time.
You are probably a gifted musician of some sort - even if you haven't realized it.
Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds.
You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or composer.You Are 32% Intuitive 
You're definitely an intuitive person, but you never go on your gut alone.
You tend to be more analytical than intuitive - possibly because your intuition has failed you in the past.
When you don't have enough facts to make a decision, you don't mind listening to your gut to figure out what to do.Your Attitude is Better than 55% of the Population 
You have a positive attitude... somtimes. You prefer to see the world through clear glasses, not rose colored ones.You Are Surrealism 
Dreamy and idealistic, you've created a world that is all your own.
It's very likely that you've either dabbled in drugs or are naturally trippy.
You are always trying to push beyond the boundaries of your culture and society.
You believe that art, love, and freedom can change the world.You Have Good Karma 
In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others.
Your caring personality really shines through.
Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out.
But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.You Are Somewhat Logical 
Ok, so didn't get the majority of questions right
But you did answer some pretty tough questions correctly
Logic may not be your strong point, but you hold your own!Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Thinking 
You are:
Objective, honest, and credible
Intellectually curious, with many diverse interests
More inclined toward ideas than people
Fiercely independent and unapologetically unconventionalYour English Skills: 
Grammar: 80%
Punctuation: 80%
Spelling: 60%
Vocabulary: 20%
Uh... All I can say is that most of them are crappy and I just wasted my time... Haha...
Ok... I've been neglecting this blog for awhile... Lots of reasons (and even more excuses), but I won't go into that... I'm just glad that the skin's ok again... After all the trouble I went through...
Anyway, watched Titoudao after band today... I must say it's quite different from films and tv shows... As in, in those, all you see is glam and bling, everyone's (who's supposed to be beautiful) beautiful, glamourous, and those that're not supposed to be are still presentable, nice and all... You know, all the way from shoes, clothes, makeup, accessories to wigs... But what I saw in Titoudao was more... Realistic... Practical and convenient even... I'm not sure how to put it into words, but it took me some time to get used to it... After all, this is the first time I watch a stage production... Yeah, never saw any plays, musicals, dances onstage other than those in schools... Kinda sad, but that's the truth... Haha... But after watching, I'm fascinated and won't rule out watching more... Yup...
And I find a need to complain, complain and complain: IT DOESN'T FEEL ONE BIT LIKE HOLIDAY!!! YAARRRGGGGHHHHHH!!!